After much preparation, the young self-proclaimed Emperor of The Han Dynastory is now serving a full-time mission to the UK with The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

He will return in 2014.


Welcome to the Han Dynastory!

As I am now serving a full-time mission with The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I have left this blog under the stewardship of a family member, who may post updates on how I'm doing as he/she sees fit.

Enjoy your stay!

Friday, December 31, 2010

End of Year Sale

Went shopping with lovely Feli today =) We haven't been able to go out ever since she went back to Indonesia shortly after A Levels ended, so it's great to have her back again for a short while.

Bought some new clothes that are reasonably more stylish than everything currently hanging in my wardrobe XD Definitely covered more ground than that brief prom shopping excursion with Chris Khew that ended up in a mad dash to the LAN centre XD

If you're a male pragmatist with hopeless shopping skills and you happen to be in dire need of help in this field, get a girlfriend.

Bonus: it's probably more fun to shop with her than anybody else except *maybe* someone who offers to pay for everything XD Awesome if both are the same person, but that might make you a loser.

Monday, December 20, 2010

I'm Still Here!

I've not abandoned this Blog! I'll not let it degenerate into a spam site! Just give me some time to savour the sweet holiday now that A Levels are over, and soon I'll be busy again and complaining about the lack of time to blog.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Go Away Spam

Just cleared all the spam comments on my rather dusty blog. Many thanks to those who have cared to ask what happened to my blogging instincts.

Well, what can I say? When you're living a felicitous life, there's no reason to spend so much time blogging on the computer. Not when there is so much else I could be doing... keeping up with my workload -.-

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Taking A Break

I'm sitting at the coffee table in my uncle's living room in Kuantan, listening to Erik Satie's Gymnopedie No. 1 on YouTube. I had 12 hours of sleep last night and I just had a nap earlier. I did a simple pencil portrait of my uncle over lunch and I had some fun doing a few pen sketches of roses on the couch later.

I guess one could reasonably conclude that I am taking a break. Well, in the physical sense that would be very much true, judging by the amount of sleeping involved. However, I think I am yet to discipline my mind to the point that I can take mental breaks. When I'm not careful my mind wanders off to thinking about the work I need to complete when I get back to Singapore (if I'm not busy trying to ignore the fact that it's Valentine's Day today, of course), and how soon I would like to get back to Singapore to get it all done. I don't know when I mutated into a workaholic, but it's taking a toll on my sanity.

Somehow, my misguided sense of responsibility leads me to take charge of things, and I find it difficult to let other people handle things I was previously in charge of. People have told me that I need trust other people more, but I think that is not the main issue. The problem lies in my inability to accept imperfection in what I do. I can accept imperfection in what others do, knowing that I will never truly understand the capability of others. However, I, for some reason, believe that I should be able to meet certain standards I set for myself, and when I fail to meet them, I feel like I've let myself down. Hence, the difficulty I have in letting go of things and handing tasks over to others lies in the self-inflicted guilt that I haven't done enough. It is something I will likely be spending a huge part of my life overcoming. As my teacher advised during a very candid and emotional sharing session, I cannot afford to keep voluntarily offering myself as a martyr.

This is completely unrelated, but I learnt something interesting while on the road with the family yesterday. We were driving from Singapore to Kuantan, and my Dad (who had to drive from KL to Singapore to pick us up) was tired. I offered to take over as driver while we were along the coastal highway (on the East coast of Peninsular Malaysia). Mind you, it was my first time driving along that highway, a highway with only one lane on each side, meaning that each time I attempted to overtake a vehicle in front of me, I would have to watch out for vehicles approaching from the opposite direction. My first few attempts at overtaking were carried out very cautiously. I observed the timing of other drivers ahead and how far they cut into the opposite lane. When it finally came down to it, I remember hardly anything besides slamming the accelerator as if my life depended on it. Of course, after a while the slamming of the accelerator was done less out of fear but more out of frustration with slow drivers (we were late for our reunion dinner and these jokers were crawling at 60km/h). One particularly amusing driver happily drove in the middle of two lanes unless there were cars coming from the opposite direction, causing me to spend a good 15 minutes just trying to overtake him. Where are the "jump" or "launch missile" buttons when you need them -.-

Okay, erm, back to what I learnt that I found interesting... At some point I found myself driving behind a bunch of cars who were in turn driving behind a huge truck. One by one they overtook the truck until it was my turn. Then I noticed something which Mom pointed out. People overtook the truck when the truck had its left signal on. Nobody overtook the truck when it had its right signal on. Basically, the truck driver was kindly signaling when it was safe for the drivers behind to overtake (since the sheer size of the truck made it difficult for drivers behind to see what was ahead). I have to admit that I had not expected that sort of kindness to come from my fellow countrymen on the road. Nevertheless, I was all the more pleased. Little instances of kindness like that make people's days. That's a thought I should remember as I go about each day =)

Sunday, February 07, 2010


A lot can happen in 90 minutes of a heart to heart talk.

Like forgetting that your next lesson is at 3:10 and not 3:30!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Still Catching Up

It's been a few weeks of school already and I'm still recovering from the holidays and settling into the life of a J2. Mrs Wilson remarked in choir yesterday that sometimes in life you need deadlines to keep you going. I'll admit that is true, but I think my current situation is a case study of failure in moderation.

I was reflecting during Church today how I've not really taken care of Mom as well as I should have. I ended up going home early to see what I could do since she's not well today. Most of the time I hide behind the excuse of too much school work. This year will be a test of how well I've defined my priorities.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Just Do It

Test of Patience: Being told to take the garbage out when I'm sweaty, tired, stressed, and ready to snap at anyone who bothers me.

But I passed this test tonight =)

These little achievements deserve to be celebrated as the pressure begins to mount XD

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Reflections of 2009

Now that 2010 has arrived I am compelled to look back at 2009 and think of all that has happened.

Some key events of 2009:
1. Getting satisfactory results for my GCE O Levels
2. Being posted to ACJC
3. Joining the ACJC Choir, a wonderful family whose values are not very different from mine
4. Deciding to enrol in the Music Elective Program and obtaining an MOE scholarship for it, relieving a lot of financial pressure on Mom and Dad
5. Trip to Beijing to visit my eldest sister (also my first trip to mainland China and to the Great Wall!)
6. Taking up a leadership position in ACJC which has perhaps become the greatest source of growth opportunities in my life in the College
7. Getting over a crush which governed much of my actions towards the end of 2008 but eventually falling for someone else -_-
8. Mom's third cancer
9. Grandpa's passing
10. Period of stress and loneliness (in conjunction with a period of spiritual low)

The tenth event on the list is something in particular which might possibly sum up 2009, as emo as it sounds. Junior College is by no means a walk in the park, and I have high expectations of myself, hence the period of stress. But it wasn't always about making the grade. The greatest source of all that stress (and a lot of disappointment in myself) was the realisation during the year that I had compromised on acts of service in my academic pursuits. Towards the end of 2008, it became my dream to work with the United Nations and contribute to the betterment of mankind. It is a tall ambition, and I knew that it would also require appropriate qualifications. My first step on that path was to ensure that I obtain good grades in order to keep as many doors open as possible for me to pursue such a career in future. However, the key to my dream - service, was ironically lacking during my time in ACJC in 2009. I consciously decided to forgo a lot of little acts of kindness in exchange for more time to study. Having realised this, it became clear to me that I had lost sight of what I truly wanted, and it was a rather painful revelation.

It was about the same time that I began to feel somewhat lonely. I had plenty of friends, or more like people I enjoyed being with and spent time with here and there. However, I did not feel close to any particular friend as much as I did with Ben and Marion in 2008. In 2009, Ben was off to National Service while Marion just got busier with things in her polytechnic. I did not find any friends I could really speak to in ACJC during the school year (although that is possibly changing as I type). Perhaps it is because of the age difference, but I really missed having friends like Hao Ran, Chern Hui, Zi Jien and Fang Soe who are all in universities now. Of course, it is easy to feel that way because I have only spent a year in ACJC, while the four friends I miss were classmates of mine for at least three to four years in KL. This year will be the seventh year since the start of our friendships, so there obviously has been a lot of time for me to develop a close bond with them. One thing I enjoy most about talking to them is our dreams and hopes for the future. We're all at a crucial stage in life where many great things are about to occur. I remember the talk I had with Fang Soe on one of my trips back to KL. Each time I go back I would often spend a night at his apartment which he rents with some of my other friends to catch up with each of them. There was once when he shared about his difficult decision whether to take up farming to honour his father's profession or to enter the field of social sciences to engage in human development (a dream not unlike mine). He eventually found a balance between the two, and I am very happy for him. It's this kind of friendship that really takes time to develop, and I obviously can't expect it within a year in ACJC, but all the same, I do feel lonely at times when I am unable to feel close with friends.

One thing about I noticed about the period in time which one might dub as "depression" was that I had been neglecting my spiritual development, primarily in the form of studying the scriptures. I could easily make time to spend at least half an hour studying the scriptures each day, but I did not, and it has affected me. That's something I should really work on this year.

If 2009 was a hectic year, this year will be more than pure chaos. I can look forward to the ACJC Fun-o-rama, Choir tour and GCE 'A' Levels. Nothing a bit of camaraderie and divine guidance can't pull me through though.